day 1

My friendster horoscope
(speaks for itself)

“Put the phone down. You don’t need emergency psychological attention, and you’re not going to give anyone the impression that you do simply because they spot a tear in your eye for the first time in seven years — or however long they’ve known you. It’s okay. Whether it’s nostalgia (the most likely cause) or frustration, you have every right to let your feelings show. Just because you have the right doesn’t mean you’re comfortable with it — but at least try it on for size.”

Woke up this moring and got disappointed. ‘was expecting that john would call me once he got to his stop-over..but he didn’t. I couldn’t sleep well last night since I didin’t want to miss his call. but hey, i didn’t miss anything pala. Had my finals at Spanish class a while ago. i think i did well. i finished it pretty fast. I still have doubts though if i’ll continue to level 3. i want to, but i’m just not in the mood for that…right before my test started, i received a message from john. He was already at sydney. i felt that surge of sadness come back. i was doing fine that morning. laughing, making jokes, even studying for my test! ‘felt sad again when i absorbed the fact that i won’t see him for 2 months…

Went to greenhills with gail a while ago. i was going to buy a webcam, but changed my mind. i figured, i didn’t want to waste money on something I’d only be using for 2 months. then we watched a movie. Dungeons and dragons to be precise. don’t ask. I wanted to sleep the whole time. haha! During the movie itself, i received a call from Lex. he was checking if I was okay; and during that time, I WAS. he sounded so concerned, I got really touched. I thanked him for his concern. gail told me that before John left, he told them to take care of me while he wasn’t around…now i miss him more..I didnt really expect john to say that. i didnt expect him to be so concerned..and I’m glad to know that he is.

Had lots of fun with Gail today. I forgot John for a while, and i actually felt normal. I don’t remember being sad when we were together.

I’m a few minutes away from talking to John again. I’m getting sad already. Sometimes i feel like I’d rather have him out of my system so I wouldn’t be sad. But i know that’s not a good thing. And honestly, i don’t want him out of my system.

i’d like to be sleeping beauty for once. Sleep through the dark ages, and wake up when everything’s okay.

**Thank you Gail, Lex, Arvin, Dexter and Sheilla for your concern. I really appreciate every effort of cheering me up. i love you guys!**